LETTER TO MAMMA 

Mamma is a word which gives peace and soothing sensation instantly,she bears unbearable pain to make you came in this world,she cares like no one can,and when suddenly she left you and beloved to ALLAH then nothing left ,this world seems like thorns and every other person seems stranger even your closest one,I am also going through from this difficult time,my mamma is my inspiration,my whole world,my bestest friend,after her i never found best friend always stayed alone in family,in university in everywhere unconciously,After her everyone's real face revealed,my mamma wished to see me happy,she couldn't even bear a single tear in my eyes and before the tears rolled down to my cheeks,she cried.

Mum is heaven , Mum is life, Mum is happiness, Mum is peace, Mum is everything,no matter she is alive or not, she just lives in my veins, she lives nearer to my heart,every single second i miss her, in my happiness i got sad instead of being happy cause of your absence 
Mamma you promised on your last day that Saman don't cry I would be fine and we'd do shopping as we both were shopaholic,n now with the name of shopping i feel crying,i started loving that thing/stuff which u touched once,i never knew how to sleep without u n now i hugged your dupatta n sleep as your heart touching scent from your dupatta makes me fall asleep.

Mamma that promise broken and i left all alone in this harsh world.
Mamma without you your saman is not happy at all,i always distracted,couldn't able to concentrate on myself only because of your absence,but mamma this parting is not permanent,One day surely we'll meet yes for sure we'll meet INSHALLAH.
I'll hug you and never left you for million of years.......
                                                                                      

A face that is always on my mind,

A smile I have seen a million times,

Two eyes that would light up the sky at night,

One last battle you could not fight,

The day was long, then night then morn.

I knew that soon you would be gone,

I clasped your hand so warm in mine,

Soon we would be out of time,

To stay with us you fought so hard, 

A million pieces went my heart,

Now a photo I look at to see your smile,

I keep your number on my speed dial,

A video I watch to hear your voice,

This I do.... I have no choice.,

But great memories I will always keep with me,

Your love in my heart for eternity,

I never got to say goodbye,

To understand why, I can but try,

Waiting in heaven from this moment on,

'Till god asks you to bring me home.

ONLY YOUR SAMAN 

IS lOVE A PLEASURE OR HELL???

love is a feeling either it can flourish one's life or destroyed.

Anything in this world exist can take negatively and positively as well,At one side it is a positive sign that someone loves but when it is up from the normal range and got negatively then it can destroy ones all.

It is a story of a girl lived in lahore aged 20,she got a bestest friend,who had changed her life and turned all her sadness in to lightening and smiles,as she lost her family in flood that's why all she could saw everywhere was just tears,when she started to spent time with him,the internally dejection was going towards decline,and she started to live happily finally,she couldn't even thought to live without him,life was going on pace,as time was passing she realized, that friend was getting compulsion for her and the boy felt mutual as well.

One day that boy proposed her and asked to marry him,she astonished to hear it as the boy was younger than her but she accepted at last.

Time was passing fastly ,both were much true and sincere but after few days  the boy's family got to knew about that relationship and they all were strongly opposed and boy's family insulted that girl alot,blaimed over her character and wounded her soul as she was all alone felt solitary alot,but the best part was that the boy loved her more after that incident and got resolute to marry her at any cost,but his family giving him slow poison and constantly said wrong about that girl whom he loved.

After listening constant worse about her, he started to believed in his family and gradually was getting far from the girl,as girl was noticing his changing behavior and really puzzled from his ignorance.

He shouted at her,abused her without any reason,as the girl loved him alot she couldn't bear all these disturbing act and one night in excessive depression she hunged herself at fan and gave her life only because of him,from his unbearable ignorance,that's why said that the world is too harsh,it's not the era of being sincere.

Keep your eyes open but mouth closed.

Above saying always suits in this era and everyone should apply this,the girl who left her life because of her lover n he didn't even thought a single time about her and became heartless.

"Being sincere is a crime"

APARTED FROM SOUL

It was sunny and blazing afternoon of November 8th,2009,Saturday. Me and my sister SANA were alone at home,warm day of Ramadan,we both were fasting,we were sitting at lounge and watching baking show on T.V,chef were baking black forest cake it seemed very delicious and tasty,it was my darling and affectionate sister SANA’S birthday. We decided that we should celebrate her birthday with her mirthful buddies,SANA called her friends and invited them on birthday at evening,we reached at garage and I sat with her at front seat,it was risky to go alone two girls at afternoon but we loved to do daring deeds. We reached at departmental store near area and bought all essential stuff of baking and going but when we reached at Ayesha manzil ,weather became very exucite as well as our mood got very gleeful and joyful. When we reached home we decorated the drawing room in a very superb and sumptuous way with balloons and different colored charming ribbons. By watching all these imposing and endless preparation of her birthday she started smiling and happiness can seen by her facial expressions. After finishing the decoration we entered in kitchen and cooked,baked and fried all aftari items, after making all yummy edible items we sat at lawn frequently she said : “oh ! saman I have to water my favourite flowers, gardener didn’t came today morning”, she dragged water pipe to lawn and started watering her favourite pink rose and white tulip,that time evening was very aromatic because of  spreading of fascinating scent of flower n heart catching voice of watering plants could be felt,sana was messing with me and made me sparingly watery.

               Suddenly door bell rang it was sana’s friends she warmly welcomed all her friends and invited them to have a sat at drawing room,after gossips azaan of magrib started,we all did aftari and we were attending jovial and memorable time together. After sometime ,opened gifts,enjoyments were at mountainous that time. When her friends got back their home. In the kitchen she was assembling remaining eating items in the fridge. I was sitting at the counter of the kitchen and having macronies as well as talking with my sister then she made my favorite creamy coffee we both went upstairs at roof. It was arctic night , we sat together and were talking about the instant idea of birthday party and its arrangement.

 Weather was already very chilled it started raining, we got very excited inspite of very frigid weather raining we didn’t saved ourselves and blithfully got wet in rain, after sometime we start shivering and sana said “ lets move towards downstairs,we fastly moved towards our room because cold was unable to bear then we wore warm clothes, mean while door bell rung it was saqib at the door (my brother)who was 19 years old that time n BBA student at CBM. Saqib was outside the door he said that it’s sana’s birthday let’s go outside for fun and celebrate because it was very attractive dark and rainy cold night then endless joy had started that time me sana and saqib were together and leaved home to have hot soup to keep warm ourselves, after having soup we reached at dolmen mall for shopping we bought a lot of things because eid was very near, that night sana bought finger ring and some bracelet for me and still I have saved it as treasure if any one says me that give me that ring and bracelet I will give u all the treasure of the world then my answer will be surely NO it is very memorable and ever important accessories for me a lot of beautiful moments are sticked with a single ring n some accessories.

 We were quite hungry so we determined to go BOTS (Clifton)then we reached there and had prawn biryani then slowly walking at the sides of shores that time environment was unforgettable heart touching,cold breeze our hairs were waving with breeze we 3 were spending their ever best and memorable moments of life that time,it was very owesome day , we 3 promised that we were never ever get apart or go far away from each other.

 The promise were written to broke in fate and after 3 months 4 Feb,2009 my darling sister died with major nervous breakdown , I still remember her smily face , her shinny long golden hairs and magnetic personality,it’s been 5 years of her death but in every single minute she is with me she is saved in my heart and I can not stop myself from loving her, without her I am losting alone in this whole world because my sister means a lot to me, she left me breathless,whenever I think about it that she is no more then without her I am aimless,broken-hearted, sometimes very scary. But it was the decision of ALLAH no one can change this fact that every soul has to taste death , my ALLAH can never plan anything wrong for their creations, but my sister still comes in my dreams often and she says that SAMAN you are not alone never get sad I am with you , in dreams she always hugs me I ever saw her.
It was most memorable day of my life of my sister’s birthday, it’s fact that she is not alive but she is with me always at every single moment, moral is that if your loved one is not with you and your feelings are true so no matter the person alive or dead your loved one be with you forever like my sister is with me

 MAY ALLAH FORGIVE MY SANA’S ALL TYPES OF MISTAKES AND SINS AND GIVE HER HIGHEST PLACE IN JANNAT-UL-FIRDOUS AND REST IN PEACE !!

With tears rolling my story ended here I have decided to write about it because it is going on my mind all the time, I love her, badly miss her , dying to get her back, dying to see her face atleast one time in my life. . . one hope is still glowing in me that  inshallah I will meet with my sana at jannah. .. .
                                                         

              

                              BEAT THE BLUES

Life always not as sparkling and interesting as it seems,it has tons of ups and downs,sorrows and bitter reality with mesmerizing and cherish moments.One should make fully effort at  his down times to beat the blues.It is the story of a widow women were spending her life solitary with both end meets.

In dec 2013,she married with a handsome,sincere,loving and caring man,he was commanding officer in PAKISTAN RANGERS,one night they were sleeping,sudden they awaken with high echoing ringtone of cellphone throbbed their heart.It was call from head office to reach as fast as possible.It was 3:00 a.m,he took his bag,wore bullet proof jacket and out from home to head office for operation 87 swiftly.

Before leaving home he hugged his beautiful wife n said:

"My darling Sara,I am going for the safety of thousands of people sleeping now,ALLAH would save me don,t worry,I would back soon,take care alot."

When raza (sara's husband) left,Sara were restless and constantly praying for her husband,At fajar she offered salah and salah-tul-hajaat as well for safety.

It was not new for her being a wife of a commander because she knew that he have to go at any cost but that particular day she was excessive distracted.

At 10:00 a.m morning,door bell rang and an officer was standing outside with rangers van to say that her husband shot dead during operation.

After listening that she fallen down on floor and lost her mind because she loved him alot.

4 months later,when her iddat over she was hopeless and declined to live more but she connected with eternity and gradually raised hope for being alive only because of her husband.

Slowly she turned towards life but failed to BEAT THE BLUES.